It starts with a thought, and then a small pressure in my chest, nausea, nervousness, heavy sweating, hyperventilation, just like that I am overthinking again, super stressed, and just about to have an anxiety attack.
I usually have a hard time waiting for things, I tend to worry and over analyse facts trying to understand it. Somedays I spend a lot of time trying to rationalize every thought coming across my head, even knowing that I can’t control anything, and in those moments anxiety builds itself up, like a wall around me, all I can say is that it physically hurts.
Then, I start to pray and ask God for some peace of mind, surprisingly instead of asking me to calm down, the Holy Spirit only tells me to trust, and oh boy, why is that so freaking hard?
Patience is something that I will be learning until the day I die. Life is full of processes, and walking with God is taking steps with Him, if there is anything separating you from having a closer relationship with God, He is going to invite you to break this wall, well, sometimes “breaking this wall” takes time, and it may hurt, but even there, you must trust.
One thing I know for sure, I will never have confidence on a stranger. So, I can’t trust God trough any process of my life if I don’t know who He is. Lucky for me, the Bible says that knowing Him is possible, and Jesus’ life is literally an example of how this relationship between us can happen, if we want it.
“What comes into our minds when we think about God is the most important thing about us.” A. W. Tozer
But, how does God’s identity relates to my anxiety, my trusting issues and my own heart?
God is a person, and in many times on the Scripture, specially in the Old Testament we see God saying “I shall be their God and they shall be my people” (Ez 37:27, Jr 31:33), but after Jesus we see an extra perspective over God’s character: “I will be a Father to you, and you will be My sons and daughters, says the Lord Almighty” (2 Co 6:18).
Trough Jesus God has revealed His paternity, Matthew 5, 6 and 7 is the super famous Sermon on the Mount, Jesus’ first sermon was all about God being a Father, Jesus introduced God as our heavenly Father for a reason, because when we embrace the true identity of God as our Abba – an intimate term for God as father – it changes who we are.
God is a good Father, lovely and real.
As an anxious woman I am still struggling against fear and worries, but being a child of God makes a difference on how I am going to look at my struggles and hardships. What Would God Say to Your Anxiety? Even better, What would Your heavenly Father say to His daughters’ anxiety? He would say:
“Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? (Mt 6:25 | ESV)
“If Your Heavenly Father gives attention to the appearance of wildflowers — most of which are never even seen — don’t you think he’ll attend to you, take pride in you, do his best for you? What I’m trying to do here is to get you to relax, to not be so preoccupied with getting, so you can respond to God’s giving. People who don’t know God and the way he works fuss over these things, but you know both God and how he works. Steep your life in God-reality, God-initiative, God-provisions.” (Mt 6:31-34 | MSG)
That is exactly whom He is, our Abba, ready to hold you trough this day, this month, or this season of your life. The Paternity of God comes with the free gift of His Spirit being poured into the hearts of all who believe in His Son, Jesus, the One who is real and reliable forever.